♥Friday, January 9, 2009
I've been out; either was i working..,
out w my boy.., acc. my mummy right in my living room
or it's just that my brother had taken away the internet cable for his own use.
OR maybe i've nothing to blog.
or it's also just that;simply said..i'm always out early(07:00a.m), back late(11:00p.m) . .
too tired to remember what i've done for each day. heheh~
Had been going swimming w jq
and running alone.
I've like exercised everyday this week. omg~ haha :D
caught Ponyo on the 5th.
it's a very cute &yah...VERY CUTE show(:
Yesterday, which was the 8th,
went to find him after his work.
he doesnt like his job i supposed :O
i rate his work as horrible :x
&MISSION FAILED.
i wanted to give him a surprise by scaring him from behind,
cause he doesnt know that i went to find him.
in the end, he scared me.
not the other way round. lol
&so, TODAY. the 9th.
i may go along w my dad to collect my new house keys^^
then, planning to go Tp's Open House w jq(:
AND I MUST REMEMBER TO NOTIFY LARLENE !!!.... :D
12 Jan.
O level results released.
i'm gonna get myself real disappointed this time.
This isnt PSLE.
i had a dream few days back...
it's not about my life goals or what i want to achieve. . .
it's really a *******dream...made me wanna go knnbccb :/ ):
i dreamt that my mummy passed away...
WTF. i found myself tearing
non-stop when i woke up.
i was sleeping in the living room.
it was almost 6 plus in the morning,
the Sun wasn't out brightly yet;
&it's time for me to get up and prepare for work.
i got so scared. i didnt want to open my eyes..
then, i heard one of the room's switch being switched on.
i saw a black figure standing in front of me, yawning...
then, i knew that it was just a dream.
it's her.
this is why i hate to dream.
i love her.
i don't know what will become of me if she leaves me in years to come.
i think i will leave with her. i hope.
it's stupid i know.
but i'm willing to be this bloody stupid..
in exchange that it never ever happen in my real life
even if it's gonna scare me every time i sleep.
this goes the same to my dad. i love him too.
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♥remember me with a smile at 7:55 AM
♥Wednesday, December 17, 2008
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First paycheque; must take picture :)-
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:Dhad bloodshot eyes for the whole day today.
Supposed to meet 1.5 clique for lunch;
but it was cancelled as 2 of the guys were still having sweet dreams.
Still; of course, met up w him.
Had lunch;walked around Tmall;CS.
Afterwards,
Dear had a call from w.kiat to meet up to get their pay.
waited for the others for 1 hr 30 mins at the interchange. . .0.-
Bused down to Ubi/Macpherson Road.
and so Finally, He got his 1st payCHEQUE of his life(:
i'm happy for him :D
Headed to RHS warehouse, leaving the rest.
bought some sports attire,
bused back to Safra &had our dinner opp. the Neighbourhood PP.
Had a walk, towards NTUC which is located near JYSS.
Sat in the trolley(2nd time), had my baby to "drive" me around^^
the place was quite packed w people
&i was asked by 1 NTUC manager to get down the trolley.
He said it nicely of course.
But someone's jealous i think. maybe a 5 years old kid complained to them. lol
&i completed my marketing again[:
he sent me to the bus stop;
homed.
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I don't feel sad. i don't feel down. i don't feel upset.
I don't feel angry. i don't feel pissed. i don't feel happy.
I don't feel that you cared. i don't feel that you remembered.
I don't feel importance. i feel like crying; cause you've got me disappointed.
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Boy, you are really important to me..
If what had happened had happen in my previous relationships,
i would have just walked off; away from you &ignore you;
maybe just refuse to reply yr texts, or i would've just switched off my phone.
i've the choice and freedom of doing these if i wanted to,
but i've told myself that this ain't gonna be like that anymore.
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She wants no quarrels; she just want to be happy w the one she loves.
she's not the previous Tiffany that always acts on impluse when it comes to love relationships.
she thinks twice, or maybe thrice now when someone did something that got her feelings flustered.
and do you know the number of times i cried because of you?
i bet you don't've any clue about that isn't it..
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Dont have to wonder why i'm like this right now. i've thought it through
and it's because i really do love you, &i cared for wht you have ******** me
cause i feel that it is very important to me as an individual &as yr girlfriend;
though i hate to have people to ******* me something or anything,
when if everything in the end, became an empty one.
The feeling surging within would be so. . . . . .
--
-you got me trapped in my emotions.
don't get too far;get it fixed.
you don't know how deep you've got me into.
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♥remember me with a smile at 11:57 PM
♥Thursday, August 14, 2008
有时,我不知道我到底是不是你的最好朋友
别人可能认为是
我可不觉得.
我很愿意聆听你的伤心事
和你分担你的不快乐
同享你的开心
听你罗嗦,埋怨.
我没怨,因为你是我的好朋友
我心甘情愿
好让你有个人可以依赖 给你相信
我真的很不舍得让你一个人承担一切
因为我珍惜
那我呢?
我只是想要你听.
一下也好.
我只有一双耳朵
但是在我的一颗心里
我有很多心事想分享
我的存在不只是听
我也需要有人在我身旁给我鼓励
听我的开心 不开心
告诉我什么该做
什么不该做
我有的好朋友不单单只是你
但他们关心的还要比你给我的还要来得多
如果你要我放弃
我可以
因为我不是你唯一的朋友
我说的对吧
我最重视的一天你不在
anyway, Happy Birthday Ken ((:
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♥remember me with a smile at 6:57 PM
♥Tuesday, July 29, 2008
English oral sucks big time.
我真的很忙
没有什么时间谈什么恋爱
也觉得没什么必要
请你们不要给我太大的压力
我经不起
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♥remember me with a smile at 6:48 PM
♥Friday, July 11, 2008
breezing my fingers across the keyboard,
I'm thinking wht should i type.
I just know that I didnt go to school today.
tired,
not feeling well
&its Friday.
Each of us is a masterpiece.
Be yourself.
Aspire,
Be,
Create,
Dream.
There's pictures to entertain.
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♥remember me with a smile at 10:29 AM
♥Friday, June 20, 2008
from this...
to this.
I didnt know the consequences of leaving the broken glass panel
of mine vertically beside me
at such narrow space b/w the foot of my bed and
my display shelf.
At first the panel was in one piece,
after which at around 0915,
before I walked past it,
I accidentally kick onto it
which went broken into two pieces.
my toe went numb for awhile
but it didnt bleed &doesnt seemed to be hurt.
And so, I dumbly leave it as it is
&continued my cleaning.
of course,
cleaning includes walking around the
room to move yr belongings away from the shelf,
throwing of unwanted stuffs etc...
there I went again,
this time, the sharp edge of the bigger
piece went straight into my toe !
The first thing that came onto my mind was
'' Die, cannot do my skipping anymore...''
-.-
I called for my daddy to take tissue for me
in the living room.
He didnt came for me at first.
ya. I called too softly.
I find it no big deal
cause I didnt know I had bleed so much
after lifting my feet up.
A POOL OF BLOOD !!!
I gan jiong of course. lol
my tissue box was just beside me on the bed
but has no more tissue for me to stop the blood.
suay until like wht sia.
so near yet so far.
my daddy was shocked when he came in my room
&he said he thought I was talking to
my mum on the phone
that's why he didnt came for my help.
he keep scolding me laa.
but i know he 心疼我 ((:
suddenly the excruciating pain engulfs me when
he put pressure on my wound.
tearing like hell.
I cant talk,
I cant walk,
loss of blood means no oxygen.
esp when I'm already lacking of iron
&there went my red blood cells
which made me even weaker.
I dont wnt to live life like a disabled person.
I was treated like some princess by my daddy,
he made milo for me, bought lunch for me,
cut apple &oranges for me to stabilise my blood sugar.
he was smart laa. haha
I didnt even thought of eating fruit sugar
to replenish my energy.
yes. I thought blood was clot after
my dad bandaged for me.
I wanted to change the dressing
as it was soaked with my bloody blood.
I hop-ed to the bathroom.
everything was okay until.......
my injured toe touched the side
of my other leg on the way.
blood gushed out again! PAIN LIKE FCUK !!!
alot of blood dripped on the floor.
drip drip drip* lol
i was like
'' i rather donate them to people who needs them...''
cried agn
wht to do. pain pain pain
dad scold me agn. cried more.
i feel so lousy at that point of time,
leaving him so much dirty stuffs to do
sigh. he wants to bring me to the clinic
to change the dressing.
but i dont wnt...
its so pain each time i touch it.
ask me what's the worst day of my life?
TODAY.
i want to run like before.
sitting &resting all day without doing my routine skipping
saddens me alot alot alot.
sigh.
this wound will only heal completely in 2 months time.
sch is reopening 2 days later.
but the pain is killing me,
not softly,
but heartlessly.
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♥remember me with a smile at 12:09 AM
