♥Friday, June 20, 2008
from this...
to this.
I didnt know the consequences of leaving the broken glass panel
of mine vertically beside me
at such narrow space b/w the foot of my bed and
my display shelf.
At first the panel was in one piece,
after which at around 0915,
before I walked past it,
I accidentally kick onto it
which went broken into two pieces.
my toe went numb for awhile
but it didnt bleed &doesnt seemed to be hurt.
And so, I dumbly leave it as it is
&continued my cleaning.
of course,
cleaning includes walking around the
room to move yr belongings away from the shelf,
throwing of unwanted stuffs etc...
there I went again,
this time, the sharp edge of the bigger
piece went straight into my toe !
The first thing that came onto my mind was
'' Die, cannot do my skipping anymore...''
-.-
I called for my daddy to take tissue for me
in the living room.
He didnt came for me at first.
ya. I called too softly.
I find it no big deal
cause I didnt know I had bleed so much
after lifting my feet up.
A POOL OF BLOOD !!!
I gan jiong of course. lol
my tissue box was just beside me on the bed
but has no more tissue for me to stop the blood.
suay until like wht sia.
so near yet so far.
my daddy was shocked when he came in my room
&he said he thought I was talking to
my mum on the phone
that's why he didnt came for my help.
he keep scolding me laa.
but i know he 心疼我 ((:
suddenly the excruciating pain engulfs me when
he put pressure on my wound.
tearing like hell.
I cant talk,
I cant walk,
loss of blood means no oxygen.
esp when I'm already lacking of iron
&there went my red blood cells
which made me even weaker.
I dont wnt to live life like a disabled person.
I was treated like some princess by my daddy,
he made milo for me, bought lunch for me,
cut apple &oranges for me to stabilise my blood sugar.
he was smart laa. haha
I didnt even thought of eating fruit sugar
to replenish my energy.
yes. I thought blood was clot after
my dad bandaged for me.
I wanted to change the dressing
as it was soaked with my bloody blood.
I hop-ed to the bathroom.
everything was okay until.......
my injured toe touched the side
of my other leg on the way.
blood gushed out again! PAIN LIKE FCUK !!!
alot of blood dripped on the floor.
drip drip drip* lol
i was like
'' i rather donate them to people who needs them...''
cried agn
wht to do. pain pain pain
dad scold me agn. cried more.
i feel so lousy at that point of time,
leaving him so much dirty stuffs to do
sigh. he wants to bring me to the clinic
to change the dressing.
but i dont wnt...
its so pain each time i touch it.
ask me what's the worst day of my life?
TODAY.
i want to run like before.
sitting &resting all day without doing my routine skipping
saddens me alot alot alot.
sigh.
this wound will only heal completely in 2 months time.
sch is reopening 2 days later.
but the pain is killing me,
not softly,
but heartlessly.
Labels: sigh
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