♥Saturday, June 14, 2008
I dont know what are you afraid of.
you said that you're afraid that you might not know me well...
so what's wrong exactly? I have no idea.
I told Baoling about wht had happened.
"wht he think was partially right. Cause really like too fast alrdy.
But since stead alrdy, can take time to understand each other.
Better than I know you so much alrdy then next time nothing to say about."
I agreed with her with the last part of the message she sent. Totally.
I know I initiated to give this relationship up.
Impulse. I always do things on impulse,
so everyone can guessed wht I meant.
I shop on impulse, skipped school on impulse, got myself angry on impulse.
This might be one of my character you might not know me well of
&you might not like. even my mum hates me for that.
But at least I know I'm being true to myself &I didnt fake anything for anyone out there to see.
Quarrels, misunderstandings.
isnt these wht couples must go through?
or is it that you want a love life where me&you have to hide
our true feelings &act as though nothing had happen
and fake as though we are a happy couple?
I rmb-ed telling you that I'm actually a very stubborn girl
& you said you're okay with it. but I know something will happen days, months after.
That is why I never believed in sweet talkings & promises
even if its from the guy I love.
sigh.
nobody knows the future isnt it?
to me, things arent going fast. they are pacing well
but for you, it might really be.
In 4 days...I dont see it as a big deal
But, being in the same class for the 4th time this year, this makes a difference
I wanted to last long. really.
still, its just so casual till I cant take it off my mind.
its just like a maths question that I'm unable to solve.
techniques? calculator? brain of a genius that I need?
No. I just need answers. Answers that I truly desire.
And one thing I want you to know is that,
I didnt fall in love with you on impulse...
Labels: being true kills me
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